Fucked up Posted at 9:04 PM 0 comments (+) Today was damn fucked.

1. While I was standing at the bus stop in the morning waiting to meet my friends as we'd agreed, The Dog appeared from out of nowhere and started barking loudly at us. Felt mildly irritated at what a wild dog is doing in school.

2. Felt about three million pairs of eyes staring at me and company today.

3. "Why must you laugh when people make mistakes and fumbles? You don't even have the guts to come up here and delivers a speech!" I'm waiting for your invitation. Don't invite me then don't say I no guts.

4. Mass dance epic fail. 'Nuff said.

5. LOTR? Saurons and Bobos?! You people honestly, from the bottom of your heart, thought it was interesting? How?!

6. They think that catching falling liquid cornstarch is classified under "fun". Cannot fathom it.

7. The itinerary wrote "1600 - Dismissal". I think they ended near 5.30 pm. If you don't intend to follow the itinerary, then save some trees and not print them, and I also won't feel so fucked that I am being released so late. I knw the delay in time was caused because the year 5s had to collect their 'O' level results. And that is not your fault. Well, it is not mine either.

8. I have just accepted that if this keeps up, it will only be a matter of time before I lose everyth. And a short time too.

My class has nice and fun people. They are unlucky to have a sian person like me who doesn't care to join in any games. But wrong company, wrong programmes, wrong time, everyth. Only my friends understand how truly terrible I felt today.

What it feels like to see year 6 people eying us curiously and thinking why we were in uniform when the year 6s are supposed to be in house tee.

What it feels like to walk up and down school all day and not see a familiar face.

The feeling of strangeness and unfamiliarity is so scary and intimidating. I fucking dread school tmr where I have to stay till near 9pm. I will bet that we will be released late. I don't want to be there at all. I rather be attending math tutorials with LCF.

Seriously. I think my post doesn't have the power to let you feel how fucked I am feeling right now and have been feeling throughout the day. Really. Fucked up.