Hoping for the better Posted at 11:07 PM 0 comments (+) In about 8 minutes I will go to sleep.

Orientation Day 2 and 3 were fun. Like, really mad fun. Yesterday was probably the first time I felt that an event planned was successful. I guess 5R's a class much like 4H and 5N. Very fun people who are up for anyth and everyth. Glad that orientation had finally ended, because I was feeling rather tired already.

Joined 6N for morning assembly and assembly today. Felt kind of same, but different, y'knw? I guess people around me knew that we're not supposed to be there anyw, and that felt kind of weird. But other than that, it feels good that either way I turn, there are people I can speak to freely without worrying what they'll think of me.

Unfamiliar faces make me feel really out of place.

Had floorball today, which is probably why I am struggling to keep awake right now. It was the usual I guess, with quite a long period of game play, and got to play with our male juniors at the end of the training.

Training makes me feel like nothing's changed. Because I am still treated like the senior there, and nobody gives shit that I'm retained lol. It made me feel belonged again, playing in the same line as Zhijun, Sharman and Sherry. Talking about Wenyi's fierce looking eyebrows. And a passing gesture by Yujie that made me feel oddly touched =x

I guess I've been leaning on the edge of emotions too much lately.

If I get into team, I'll need a new stick and court shoes. But that's if I do. Counting on it, too. Would wish to play a good game with my teammates before they leave the team for real. After that, I will contemplate whether I should stay.

After training, I went to JP and ate good food with Acer (: Felt mad full after that, but satisfied and mad happy. Happy 17th :D

Tmr, lessons will begin and my day ends with PE till 5pm. Nice time to end for a first day at school. Then, will go out with friends whom Josephine invited to have a meal together to celebrate her birthday. Then I'll head home, and maybe do some homework (:

After the first three days, I really hope for a better rest of the year with my new class. After all, everyone's really nice.

I can feel that things are starting to get different a tiny bit by tiny bit between us. And it is upsetting me. I feel that we have lesser to talk about now, and the thought of some things just makes me feel really bitter about us.

I hope that we will not give up without a fight. I don't wish that we will end right here instead of knwing it was because nothing could be helped. But I am too tired to try to hold on to it constantly and make an effort.

Things will get better, because they can't be worse than this.