Every little bump in the road I try to swerve Posted at 11:44 PM 0 comments (+)
Hey there, friends. The weekends are finally here again. Hmm, maybe 'finally' isn't that appropriate since it isn't that far away. But, whatever.

Math test today was.. okay. The questions aren't hard, but being the naturally mathematically-retarded person I am, my thought process is too slow for me to complete the paper. Did I mentioned I fell asleep for half the duration of GP test on Monday?

A housefly stung me today during econs lecture in LT2. I swatted it away when I felt a sting, but it's too late because the housefly was through doing what it wanted to do on my leg. Now there's a small bump on the spot it'd bitten. Please don't turn me into Houseflywoman like Spiderman.

Looks like my heart is not through with feeling heavy. Or maybe it's just used to feeling so. I'm feeling so many emotions at once lately I wonder how I managed that.

Some feelings have been curbed to the best I possible can, but others continue to run wild through my mind. Felt so nostalgic when I read through some archives somewhere, like how did things just become like this? It didn't feel possible. And now I wonder whether everyth you'd said are really what you mean.

This weather is of no help. The school has bad ventilation in the classrooms. I want to live in a fridge.

Maybe I have a problem with fitting in. Maybe you guys didn't knw that I'm actually not involved in the conversation. Maybe you guys could just ensure that I knw about the plans. I just felt like... "What?!" Constantly out of the loop.

Thought I deserved some respect at the very least.

It's bad enough that we are people who are so different. Sometimes when we share a good laugh, or a nice little heart-to-heart, I thought we could overcome everyth and just be together. But more often than not, I feel like I don't belong at all. And like no one really needs me anywhere. I am just too different.

People only care about what they want to say. They don't care about what you want to say, even if you started off first. They don't even care that you're not listening to them. They just want to say it.

Why did Wenyi have to be right that people are so self-centered? Why is it that the people I care about can't return me with the same amount of concern I show them? Why is it that people only care about companionship and having someone with them instead of collective friendship and togetherness? Not even being idealistic here.

I am trying to treat you nicer in the hopes of you treating me better in return.
Please don't disappoint me again, as with the many times you already have.

Life just seems to have gotten tougher.
And I feel so alone.