But I have to. Posted at 11:52 PM 0 comments (+)
Not a productive day. Was supposed to complete my overdue CSE essay, but I have not. Was supposed to do my tuition homework, but neither have I done that. I am rather disturbed by the two.

Wished I'd snap out of this.

I am wondering as the days ahead drag on empty, waiting to be filled with the familiar routine I am so used to and comfortable with, but cannot be fulfilled, what the hell I am going to do now. I thought I chose this way. So why the hell am I the one who's all over the place and struggling to pull myself together?

Why are you the one who seems so together and unaffected?

And I can't breathe without you, but I have to.