Suffocating Posted at 12:27 AM 0 comments (+)
Hmm, time for an update.

This week was hectic, I felt really tired because I procrastinated too much and didn't sleep enough. I owe a mountain-load of work now, I don't knw where to begin. Ploughing through all the notes and tutorials left me a little jaded. Thinking that this has to go on for a much longer time to come, I feel instantly rid of all motivation.

Today was the release of PW results. I was really nervous, I don't have any idea why except that I would cry if I had to retake it again this year. It's bad enough that I have to go through all the "special" assignments from the science department again, all the tutorials that I had somehow went past last year, copying out answers from the teacher's copy but not really processing anything. Imagine, PW again. All that EoM, WR, OP again.

So anyway, right after econs lecture, which was our last lesson of the day (at 10am), Kexin received a text from Jasmine that the results are out. We immediately dashed out of the LT to check our grades. My A is secured, hard work paid off. Good job RV069!

Wednesay was IU day held in school. It's been years since I last celebrated this. I still remember back in 2C how we wrapped Minzhang up like a mummy because our class represented Egypt. And staying up late folding the model pharaohs that made me feel like dying. 5R played some games like Taboo, Hopscotch and Zero-point. We really had a lot of fun, and Joonteen was the star of the day because he could jump over the rope placed at head level.


During training, the whole girls team sang Clarine a birthday song while running for our warm-up. I was breathless after that, but it felt good. Was a great day.

I've been trying to save up some money over the week. I could only manage an average of 2 bucks each day because my daily allowance is really little and my mother refuses to give me a rise ): I was hoping I could save the partial funds for my itouch. Am going to buy it as my own birthday present for this year. Saving has proved to be really difficult for a bottomless-pit like me. I've never successfully saved money before, so I consider a weekly savings of 13 bucks very accomplishing!

The week's over, now I have to clear my overdue work and revise for the series of tests coming my way, starting Monday of next week. I need to brace myself for it, because I really can't afford to fall now.

Sometimes people can really be so self-centered. It is annoying, and almost disgusting to some extent when all they talk about with the open and close of their mouths is about themselves. School hasn't exactly been a nice place to be in because too many people are becoming really annoying to me that I can't handle it. Some people ought to face the reality and stop running away. Some people are really not deserving of my anything. And I am giving no more.

Maybe I just shouldn't talk about it.

I don't knw what to do. What will happen next year when all our friends have graduated. Like Vincent says, when that time rolls around, who are the ones who will really move on? Not us. I don't think we ever would move on. How tough is it going to be, walking up and down school all day for 40 weeks without seeing any of our friends? Who will stay to give us encouragement and motivation?

I knw that everyone has to move on at some point in life. I just hope that point would come later. I also suspect that after my fellow friends leave the floorball team after the season this year, it's going to take me tremendous effort to turn up for trainings. No joke. It's going to take too much I might just leave along with them. I don't really knw.

My mind's in a mess.

Well, I've done the post as I'd anticipated. But not my tuition work. So I'll drop off to bed now and hopefully wake up early enough tmr to finish it before my study date with Seow. I enjoy our Saturday study dates at Starbucks. 7 bucks for an afternoon of pleasant company and productive work :>

Life just got tougher. And I don't knw how much more I can take.