Time passes, people change Posted at 1:00 AM 0 comments (+)
It's been awhile since I've been active around the cyberspace. It was a tiring week, despite having slept many hours every night, I never fail to feel drained of all energy in the morning. But I survived another crazy Thursday, and now I could enjoy the weekend!

It's Aprils' Fool today! The girls and I kept trying to think of some schemes to trick our teachers because we got tricked by Mr Ng! Our initial plan to trick Mr Chia fell through because it wasn't executed LOL. But anyw, we successfully tricked Miss Goh by me and Josephine telling her we're transferring out to JJC and SP respectively.

She got all serious like "Am I going to lose all of you?" with this sad face and she grabbed a chair and sat down in front of us to ask why. "Is it because of the 'A' levels? Or what?" To which Kexin replied "It's because...because it's Aprils' Fool!" LOL her reaction after that was epic. She immediately stood up and attempted to swat at us with the clear folder she was holding. Haha we got a good laugh out of it, and at the same time felt her concern for us :)

I was supposed to go off to Malacca for the weekend to attend my cousin's wedding. But there's so much homework given, and I owe that it would be impossible to finish if I went. So I decided not to go, missing the chance to see her in her wedding dress! ):

Did 3 stations for NAPFA on Tuesday, and 2.4km run was done last Friday. All scores attained are satisfactory, so not contemplating a full-speed run next Tuesday when we'll do the run again. I'm now left with SBJ and sit-and-reach. I suck at the latter anyway, will be the determining factor as to whether I attain a perfect score for this NAPFA.

'A' division floorball tournament is coming! Feeling the stress so much I actually asked for some self-training, since I am released at 10am on Fridays I have plenty of time. Just shoot some goals, practice ball control and things like that. Fixtures are out too. We're playing against MJC, YJC, NJC and IJC. Not going to comment much, since we've already set team goals and expectations yesterday regarding the matches.

School's been hectic. Lessons are moving faster and faster. It's like the teachers don't even care if you've internalised the contents or not, they just need to teach their part and that's it. Lagging behind in a lot, I seriously mean A LOT, of subjects, and owe homework to almost all subjects especially GP.

Staying home this long weekend without the family would hopefully be a productive time for me.

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At this point, I hope that you've stopped skimming my entry and start to read each line carefully. Even though the paragraphs are long. It is only meant for one person though.

You remember how we got to knw each other from the start? I hated you because you were so annoying and retarded. I used to run away from you when I saw you approaching. That was a good 3 years ago? And because of some inexplicable reason, I opened myself up to you and we started to become closer and closer that somehow your annoying and retarded behaviour became what I love most about you.

You are capable of cheering me up on the darkest days. You make me feel important and loved in your own ways which you think are nonsense but I feel really touched by. I am extremely protective of you because I never want to lose you. It would be a very upsetting thing if it were to happen, which naturally I hope never comes to be true.

Over these years, you've changed so much. I see you slowly pulling your dependence on me away. On to other friends, other commitments, other responsibilities. I become something that comes to you only once in awhile. We only talk once in awhile, we go out once in awhile, sometimes never, because you are always so busy.

I've always been against your decision, and you never try to convince me otherwise that you're enjoying what you do. Maybe that is why when I heard what you said, it struck me so hard what I'd been doing this past year. Trying your best do carry out your responsibilities while having to deal with my skepticism hasn't been an easy feat.

But now I knw, I can see the difference. And much as I don't want to do it, I will. I will let you go and do what you need to, what you love and enjoy, what you are probably born to do. It might be a sad thing that you no longer need me as much as you used to. But it's a comfort to see you strong and on your own too.

I've seen you grow so much. From the position of someone older, we became friends on the same level and now you're rising above me. When I have someone whom everybody loves, it is not your obligation to hold on to me.

Soon, you won't need me anymore. When you've grown enough to break free completely from me. We are all just a passing phase in each others' lives.
But for now, you have my full support. And I hope you go on and grow stronger, because in time, we will lose each other.

From the bottom of my heart to you.