But time has passed us by... Posted at 12:21 AM 0 comments (+)

Because sometimes people do actually feel that way. Sometimes your life feels like it's caving in on you. Sometimes people really do feel like they don't want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death. Saying "I don't want to exist" isn't saying "I want to die". It's saying "I wish that, for the time being, I could go somewhere and not have to feel". I don't think there's anything wrong with that. And if you don't know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

The match on Thursday was a good one. We didn't perform as well as the YJ match, but for this match, we ran our asses off and really went all out on court. We were labelled as 'Die-hard runners' by Stella. This is the first time we're told that we have speed and agility. I see how RVFBT had grown from the start, from being unable to control the ball properly, to today, board passes, beating players, outrunning them and scoring goal after goal. Look how far we've all come.


People always ask why we train so hard, so often, so long. Does it even help? What do they do? Is floorball fun? Are they even good at it? Come watch us on court, you'll see why.

I feel immense pride thinking about my team who backs me up. I am never feel alone on court. Even if I feel really unwell on that day, or I feel like I just can't do it, the next defender in line is prepared and ready to play my role once I run back to the sidelines. We played as separate individuals, to a team of not 5 but all 18 people, each supporting and cheering everyone on.

Next match against IJC on Friday. It's a really important and deciding match on whether we'll be able to advance to semi-finals. No room for regrets, I'm out to right the wrongs I committed last year. GO RVFBT! We'll go in stronger!

Lately, I've been feeling seriously dehydrated. I always find my water bottle empty without having memory of finishing the water. I mean, obviously I finished it but somehow my lips are dry and chapped and my throat is parched all the time. Something is wrong with me? I'm downing water like mad now.

Today's study date wasn't productive. I couldn't focus on my work. I don't knw why. Hopefully tmr will be a more successful study date, or maybe I can't turn up for 4H outing. Sigh disjointed thoughts. I should sleep earlier for tuition tmr.

I just realised there is a hell lot to study for chem test. You suckers who are waiting to watch my demise can bask in the fact that I knw almost nothing for the test.

I am struggling to breathe.



Time has passed us by and it will not be the same as before.