Memories Posted at 2:25 AM 0 comments (+)
Alright, I am already very much past my supposed bedtime but I thought I'd like to do a quick post. I went to Yishun today to mug with Shixian, but as usual I started to slack halfway and talked to her about times when we were young.

It's interesting to reminisce about the past when we were only 13 or 14. So many funny things happened. So many people I used to be close to, but now we don't even acknowledge each other's presence. So many scandals and hilarious things that I used to do. It's a wonder that I was the same person as the one I talked about today.

In my lower sec days, I was in a clique with 4 awesome girls. We were similar and different in all our ways. We used to want to take neoprints once every month. I would like to think we were close-knit back then, but then again maybe not. Till now, I am still close with only 2 of them.

I used to go to school with a guy in sec 2/3 who likes to help me with my chem on the 97 to school. Whenever I was reading a story book or sleeping, he would pull out his science companion and start reading it. My chem was really terrible back then, and he would make me memorise some tables and test me a few concepts every morning. My chem did get better, but sadly we don't talk anymore now.

I used to be close with 3 guys from the same class. They were all funny people, and entertained or helped me when I needed them. But they are all vastly different characters. As we moved on to year 3 and 4, we slowly drifted apart, and now it's like we never knew each other. I still miss one of them but I knw that he is not the same anymore.. And I knw this is life and nothing stays if no one makes an effort, but I am not going to chase after it.

I was attached to RVTT back then. Very much so. In this CCA I met so many people who changed my life. People like Zhijun, who knew we'd become such close partners in floorball later? I used to be really close with some seniors like DARREN (!!), Kwanling, Tessa and Chienying. And Miss Tan Peiqi whom I haven't seen since..... I don't even knw when. As my seniors, they taught me a lot along the way and helped me up from where I'd fallen, into who I am today. Sadly, I've not talked to KL or T anymore since they graduated. Erm, Darren disappeared, resurfaced a month ago, then disappeared again, LOL. CY and PQ remains in contact, though very infrequent, and important in my life. RVTT camp'05, do you remember? :D

I used to be close to some other juniors. But we don't talk anymore.
In RVTT, I found Yijun, Irene and Taylin. Who still are a major part in my life, and it's always unbelievable how two sec 2s, one sec 3 and one sec 4 became so close along the way. So close like how PQ and I used to be. It's been getting tougher to meet up, but I always look forward to days out with my girls. Which is this Thursday (Y)

In sec 3/4, I met Hapsburg. Haha, awesome bunch of people. Redefined a class, redefined sense of belonging and I picture the day when we are all in universities, and we come out for a chalet together and relieve old times. Cannot imagine the immensity of fun we can have. Like a family, you knw? I'm not joking or being cliche, and I'm sorry if you don't think so. In here I met my now-best friend, the Mouse. Like she says, it's always amazing how we'd become so close. Well what just happened was, when everything fell apart, and everyone fell away, she stayed and picked the pieces up. And so, we walked on. I truly feel comfortable around these people who knw me. People like Sharman, Sylvia, Yanyi, Chiouyih and some guys like Jianlong, Melvin and Sweecheng who also meant much to me along the way and contributed a fair bit to good memories in 3/4H.

Conflicts have happened but we learnt to overcome them. It was funny the way things were last time. How we could make or break each other. And yes, I do knw how to cherish friendships better now. This had also shown that we can get over those things and become friends again, right?

Our Bola Tin and Prataburg days will never be forgotten! Prata-tasting at Sharm's place with the gluttons Sweecheng and Acer who, after tasting every new flavour, goes "WAHH, HAO CHI!" LOL. Crazy selling of tickets both years. Good memories.

In year 5, nothing really happened. The one who really came to me and stayed with me was Wenyi. Still is a big part of my life now. Shixian and Kexin too, but that's a different story.

I came home and talked about my primary school days with Wenyi. About my choir days and how I casted for the school musical once. How they painted our cheeks so red with lipstick we look like zombies from those chinese horror movies. In primary school, I had some best friends, though never for long.

Khamis was a nice Malay boy who sat beside me in P1 and always picked up my pencil when it drops. Martha was a rich Indonesian girl who transferred into my class in P2 and always gave me cute note papers which I used to collect fervently. In P3, I wrote an essay about Jessica, and it was featured in some essay compilation book, which I still have. Yanjie and I always spent long afternoons together doing nothing and it was having fun in a way, and Rachel was fun to hang out with too. Kailin who still lives opposite me was my P5 friend, and after her, I decided not to have any more.

Until now, that is.

Sometimes I feel really happy I am still in contact with my primary school friends. Leaving people like Sherry aside, there's Kailin, Sara, Eileen and Haixin and some others, but these people are the regulars at outings, and are those who make an effort to keep up with each other.

Then I went to read my old old blog. My first blog, actually, back in my sec 1 days. I was so freaking annoying then. I could understand why at one point I was "publicly hated". Now everyth is just hilarious to look back on. That shows how much I've grown, I hope.

Some people walked a short way of my path in life with me, eventually fell away to their own paths. There are some who've been with me since the start, some who've joined in the middle and carried on the walk with me until now. There are SO MANY people I used to be so close to but we act like we don't even exist now that I find it hard to believe it when Shixian say "don't have" when I asked her if she has anyone like that.

I am only 18. When I am 80, I knw I will have more to look back on and laugh about. Silly things that I did which had felt so right at that time. And I knw, this will also go down as a memory I will remember. Maybe when I'm 80, I might still find some people with me, from all the way back here. That will be so good to knw, but for now I can patiently wait.

All of you people who've walked through the ups and downs in my life with me, thank you for believing and sticking with me through tough times. Friends could be forever, no joke.