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After sleeping late last night as a result of all that reminiscing, I woke up this morning at 8.30am feeling tired and groggy.

I had to go to school for math consultation, which I did not prepare for, and I didn't knw how to tell Mrs Tan that I didn't revise, and I don't knw why I should even turn up without having done anyth. I showered, ate breakfast, changed into my uniform, and tied up my hair, and was waiting for the time to come to leave the house.

Then it started to pour. The kind of rain that renders even an umbrella useless. You knw you'll be soaked three seconds into it, umbrella or not. It was a major mood-killer, and so I decided not to go already..

When it stopped raining, I went out to meet Sharman and Wenyi at JP's macs. I saw my primary schoolmate at the bus stop. We weren't really that close actually. There was a flicker of recognition, then nothing. That's what I mean, but I can't complain because I've never been great at keeping up relationships. Anyw, the connection lasted only as long as the (short) bus ride.

I met the girls. Macs was exceptionally noisy today. I wasn't productive. Sharman left for tuition at around 4pm. Wenyi and I went to the arcade for a brief while, then headed to Starbucks. Established consensus that Starbucks is THE place to study, the whole atmosphere is just different and I can focus a lot better. Or maybe, it's just all in the mind.

Tmr, we'll be meeting again at Sharman's place to study. I used to study at her place all the time during exam period when I was in year 4. We used to entertain ourselves by tweaking the pitch of the voices of songs we were listening to. Maybe we could do it again tmr ;)

Ah, been feeling helpless. It's already the last week of the school break, but I didn't really do much. I only revised 6/7 chem topics, but I don't even knw if I really internalised them. And I did learning checklist for the first 2 econs tutorials. It really isn't a lot for one whole month.

I don't really knw what can make me sit down and focus. Every night I waste my time here, and then I'd say tmr morning I'd make things right. The next day I'd be overwhelmed with exhaustion, or just plain unproductive. Then the cycle repeats itself. I think I need to get those resolutions out again and remember why I set them. I need some self-discipline.

I will see if tmr is a better day.