Jaded Posted at 10:02 PM 0 comments (+) Just got home, blogging from my itouch because I refuse to get on the computer. Feeling damn jaded after a long and hard day, but nobody at home fucking cares and just loaded me with chores the moment I stepped into the freaking house. I just feel like ranting.

Today, my lessons weren't packed. They weren't tough. I was supposed to end the day with chem prac at 2.30pm. But, I have to attend GP remedial and do comprehensions during the PW slot when my GP is a freaking B.

Then there was chem mass lecture to go through our mid-year paper that lasted till about 5.30pm. It didn't help that I failed the paper really badly. As if all these weren't enough, I had floorball PT which ended near 7.30pm, making me feel weak and tired. This day left me feeling mentally and physically drained.

Not wanting to just let a day pass like this, I went to the school library to attempt to complete some work before heading home. I reached home at nearly 9.30pm.

I am trying so, so fucking hard to be disciplined and get my work done because I knw that I am falling behind and I cannot afford to. But really, nobody tries to give me an easier time. I hate it when I do productive studying in school, when I pushed on and completed 3 math assignments at one go, when I feel slightly better about myself, nobody even believes me.

I am so tired of coming home after a long day, only to receive more nonsense from those who just don't want to try to be umderstanding. You knw it yourself, you knw I have fucking lots of work to complete. Or else why would I stay up until 4am stuggling to finish everyth?!

I really only want a short breather. Why is even that proving too much to ask for? I am fighting every day with myself between getting work done and slacking. But just because you can't see the effort I am putting in, doesn't mean that it is non-existent.

I don't knw why I try so hard and feeling so tired I just want to cry.