We'll all come through stronger Posted at 11:43 PM 0 comments (+)

Last Sunday out with 4H ultimate Kbox gang + undefeatable soccer girls. Miss the days spent with 4H, but I'm not gna start here because I've said enough on that day to them already. I am glad that I'm not the only one who feels this way. May we meet up again soon :)

Anyw, I haven't been able to update so often because I've been staying behind in school till around 9pm everyday, trying to complete my homework. I am currently feeling worried about when I can actually start on revision for promos if all I can manage to finish everyday are just homework.

Today, I received all my papers back from mid years. I cannot complain, because I didn't even really study, and I think such grades are considered satisfactory for the amount of effort I put in. Not counting the GP paper, promos are about 45 days or so away. And I cannot imagine how am I supposed to cover everything within such a short time and do well enough. I really don't.

I've been struggling to keep awake in class every single day since... I don't even knw when. I have no idea why I feel so tired sometimes that my eyelids feel like they weigh a ton, and the sheer effort of trying to keep them open tires me out. I am going into math tutorials without having tried the question, copying the answers from my teacher, then go out of tutorial not absorbing or learning anything, and the cycle continues. Things have piled up that I never got around to clearing, and is stopping me from moving on.

Just 2 days ago, my chem teacher caught me with my incomplete tutorial, and asked me why I did so badly for mid years, whether floorball is taking up a lot of my time. And he said that he wanted to check both of my tutorials we are going through today. Even though I'd done them, I think I am in some deep shit.

I don't really knw what to do about it, except for take things one step at a time. Then again, I don't even knw whether I have the luxury of time. I just wrote out the topics tested for promos for all subjects today. The list of how much I had to knw and be good at by promos was too shocking. I don't knw what I'm going to do.

Not gna continue whining about it. Got to run 10 rounds tmr again, I can see why Kexin says floorball is taking its toll on me. Maybe it really is, but at least I am enjoying myself much more in trainings and even PT now, other than the fact that it ends so late.

I want to be the best that I can be, I want to keep things as they are. I want all of us to do it together. After today, I've got to say I realised the importance of all of us helping each other through. We'll definitely come through stronger than before.

I knw that I am doomed, I knw that I definitely won't be able to finish all of that within such a short period of time. I knw that ultimately I might not do well. But I refuse to give up.

I will keep going at it until I collapse.