我却没有力气这么做 Posted at 7:17 PM 0 comments (+)

I feel so tired.

31 days to promos, I've only started revision yesterday. I cannot imagine how am I going to finish everyth. And I am already so tired. I don't want to struggle to keep awake in every lesson, I don't want to feel like it's a chore to get up in the mornings. But what can I do? I can't seem to find the perfect balance between doing work/revision and sleep.

Helpless.

Once again, floorball PT had successfully reduced my mobility. Experienced momentary paralysis in the morning when I tried to get up from bed. I couldn't move without any place hurting.

Don't have the motivation to keep going on like this.
When everyth is changing.

无力.

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Damn. I feel like screaming out loud now. It's 8.14pm. I aim to sleep at 10pm tonight to make up for all the lost sleep in the past few nights. But I've got to finish the AQ for GP tmr, and complete my study on MC.

But I am so fucking tired. I want to just laze around for awhile and surf the net for awhile and just do nothing for awhile! I never recalled having worked so hard last year, which okay, is the reason why I am still here now. But fuck, did you work so hard last year? NO RIGHT. What is wrong?!

Wtf. I really hate the whole world right now. And I hate myself for giving in to my fatigue and coming home instead of staying in school to complete my work and revision. I really don't knw what I can do to maximise studying time and not feel so drained everyday.

And every other thing in my life is making me so fucking miserable I want to kill everyone.

When is it going to be enough?
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