Time Posted at 11:14 PM 0 comments (+) It's amazing how quickly time passes. Is it because it passes so quickly, so quietly, that we gradually become desensitised to it? It feels as if I've only just woken up. It's like I just realised it's 2010 already.

I was thinking about Beijing Olympics during CSE lesson today. I was jolted in sudden realisation that it was held 2 years ago, in 2008. And it's already 2010 now. Then I remember watching the gymnastics events on TV over at Sharman's place then, laughing ourselves silly at some seriously obscene stuff while we were taking a break from studying. And various other things in 2008 that reminded me of Beijing Olympics.

Wow, how time flies.

Year 4 seems to be a pretty good year for me, not academically of course. It's a sense of knwing your definite and assured belonging to somewhere. (How I miss 4H.) It's knwing there are people who really care about you and can relate to your thoughts. I miss those times where we could play a fool and not feel bad for wasting time for revision, where we could actually afford to delay studying for fun. All those times when we had all the time to waste doing stupid shit together.

Everything now is such a drag. Everything I do, feels like I should only be studying, nothing else. Not to even mention belonging. I sure as hell am neither here nor there. Sometimes it really sucks, like the whole issue with prom... People never seem to understand attachments and relationships cannot be stopped with our leaving.

But I am learning to accept it and live with it. After all, I still have a good one year to go. Without all of them. This time, I'm truly alone.

In these years, I gained some and I lost some. Some I wished I could get back, but time has passed us by. Some things that had seem like they will never change, ever, eventually did anyway. But everything happens for a reason, and without some of these things, other things now would never happen.

In some ways, I am thankful. Everything is beautiful in a tragically twisted way.
Sometimes I do wish that everyone who had been a part of my life would stop for awhile and think back about the past when everything was alright and nothing hurt.

Am feeling really tired today, because I had my specs on the whole day trying to get used to it.. So I'm going to turn in soon and brace myself for the 10 rounds tmr morning.

May it be a good closing to the week.