Don't stop. Can't stop. Posted at 4:19 PM 0 comments (+) It's 3.52pm, halfway through my off-day from school, and I have yet to get cracking on anything other than chores.

I did a mental calculation just now about the amount of time I have for each subject and shocked myself at how little time I really have, and how am I going to manage to conquer everything and be fully prepared for each paper. I concluded that I've got to smarten up my act or I'm going to be in deep shit.

Yeah, didn't write about the other day when we (the retainees) plus a bunch of advanced students in year 5 got hauled into an LT by Mr Chua and got lectured about our studying attitude and our options left. Basically, he's saying that unless we clear our promos, there's no way we are going up. He even said he's alr stamped the papers.

Even though Kexin keeps saying that he's talking about the people with bad learning attitude, as he keeps repeating that himself as well, I just kept thinking: What happens if I don't make it? Where can I go? What can I do? We're not allowed to retain twice in JC, and okay I knw that I shouldn't even be thinking about that. But seriously? Mr Ng said that we cannot even become road sweepers if we leave the school now without any qualifications. Which is like...wtf.

I just felt kind of wrong-footed. I guess I am not his targetted audience, so I felt like I got hauled in and reprimanded at for things I didn't do. But it also served as a wake up call for me that whatever I'm still doing now is so inadequate.

I've got to set things straight, haven't I?

Haixin tried to morning call me to wake me up to study today at freaking 9am, even though I very seriously told him not to last night. But thanks to having slept so late (past 3am) and being so lethargic lately, I completely missed his call, or else I would have been really cranky.

Am feeling sick today. I half lost my voice, and I don't even knw what caused it. Fell asleep on the living room sofa when I was lagging and didn't wake up until an hour later.

I am going to turn off this computer now after this post, and go into my room and clear out the stray worksheets on my table. Then sit down and start doing some sorting out of my work that are just everywhere really. I seriously should stop being so sloppy.

(Scroll on for post on teachers' day celebrations & 6E'04 reunion.)