I really don't knw why Posted at 1:53 AM 0 comments (+)

As long as I don't think about it, I am okay, I am safe. But once it comes to my mind.. I just feel worthless. Stupid. Used. What do you take me for? What am I to you?

I am so tired of trying to explain my feelings every time. At the end of it all, nobody really gets it anyway. So what's the point? I think thinking about money is much more practical and realistic, instead of throwing myself at the wall again and again, feeling hurt again and again, and never getting answers to my questions.

I shall no longer care so much for others, because I no longer find the reason to. It's not like any of them even appreciates it. I just feel really disappointed every time it happens. It could be anyone, really. Anyone. I never knew it could be so hard just for people to type a few words and reply my texts.

It's like basic manners or what la!

You knw what? Nothing is an excuse. Not studying, not the A's, not being busy. How long does it even take for you to type a reply? I'm done with feeling hurt, and allowing others to deny what I feel, and being told this and that. Nonsense. Bullshit. Stop giving me shit excuses.

I especially loathe people who don't usually care enough to ask me how I am, but always, without fail, come running to me whenever they need my help. And when I comment about it, they come up with a truckload of nonsense about why they haven't been in touch. Absolutely abhor them. Take your rubbish and leave please.

Why do you people always have to make me feel so worthless?

I am never moving first again.
Never.