2010 In View: Seeking Strength & Rising Above Posted at 9:45 PM 0 comments (+) As is with all other years, I am not anywhere out in the crowded streets, dancing on Siloso beach, partying the night away at PH, nor having fun counting down to the new year with friends. Just here, at home, typing up my year-ender for 2010.

I've read through my entire archives for the year and some of my previous year-enders. As different as every year is, some things don't change. Like my initial resolve but ultimate failure in being less tardy in my work is undoubtedly the most popular one since I was 15. This year, I have no long list of new year resolutions to share nor the ecstatic feeling of new beginnings and determination.. To be honest, it still feels oddly sudden that it is now 31st December and the last day of the year.

Looking back on my 2010,


January, the beginning of the year. Before school commenced, there was the 4H chalet. Went for Kbox with my girls, dining out unlike the usual double BBQs, watching movies into the night and having a lot of fun!

Then, there was school. A whole new experience, getting used to stares and whispers from others, not to mention a completely different environment. With motivation newly fuelled by my retaining, I suppose it must be the most productive period of this entire year. I paid attention in every lecture, did every tutorial, and handed up my work on time. Every weekend was spent doing my homework, or at least trying to.


February, a quiet month apart from Chinese New Year, and Valentines' Day which happened to fall on the same day. This year's CNY was not unlike the others, no festive mood to speak of and all. We joined the year 6s for the celebrations in school (year 5s not included) and then there was the Learning Symposium which we spent slacking in the library.

Spent the eve of CNY with Acer as celebration for V'day and our monthsary as well. Ate at NYNY then with a super fulfilling meal and great candyfloss which we tried to take more of but didn't in the end! It was a good albeit short day for the both of us and I enjoyed myself greatly with taking silly shots of the candyfloss covering my whole face :)


March, this compilation leads me to believe that nothing really happened in the month because all the photos are from floorball camp! This was the very first floorball camp that we had.

Late at night, while everyone else was probably asleep in the hall, or have snuck off somewhere, Sharman and I lay on the grass field again, staring up at the starless night sky, talking about everything in life until we both drifted to sleep at 4am. It was such a comfortable feeling, despite it being really chilly at 4 in the morning, and I woke up 2 hours later to a wet phone and slippers.


April was floorball month. With the looming 'A' division games, we trained till late hours in school. We played against YJC and NJC, and won them both as well. In this month, all was floorball floorball floorball for me. I threw myself into each training and each match until I couldn't breathe. But in a way, I felt so much better by doing that and of course, numbing the newly inflicted heartache.

This was the month I began learning to live alone.


May, a happening month in terms of floorball, academics and everything else. RVFBT did make it into the semi-finals, and that is something for such a new team like us. I felt like the team grew stronger after each match, and with new resolve to play better for the next.

Then there was the time when RVFBT went out to play pool together after the Disability Sports Challenge in school. The team ran in the event as well, and clinched champions :) There was my birthday, spent experiencing Dialogue in the Dark then Sakae buffet with my lovelies, and chilling at JP's Starbucks with my girls until late. Lifted my mood up after many days of gloom on end :)

AND I WENT TO THE ZOO AFTER 10 YEARS! LOL!


June was a bad month. Suffered some sort of withdrawal syndrome and refused to be connected/contacted. In the midst of my gloom I remember my girls asking me out to the beach, where it poured for a long time but we had fun after wards splashing in the water like little kids. Failed study dates, and more outings with my juniors and girls. Not really studying, sums up my month.


July was much better, and I think full of fun and relaxation. Going to my first flea with the girls and squeezing around all day but ended up with good buys. Sitting at the big steps at *SCAPE and HTHT-ing with Kexin and Siewhwee till late. Ballet Under The Stars with some of the floorballers, free BK burger and uncooperative dancers tsktsk. And outing with the 4H girls where we played pool and chatted at Ya Kun about the good old days..



August was an eventful month.There was National Day, and honestly the celebrations in school was quite decent for a change. Yanyi's birthday where the few girls went to CSC to K and were desperately spamming photos in hopes of it reaching 100.. Then there was talent time! First ever for all my years in RV, and I must say some of the performances were really spectacular!
Next in line was teachers' day. I had fun with 5R and the celebrations were good as well.

Had a 6E gathering on that day. Attendance was unexpectedly good, and we stayed out at the park until late after the meal, talking about the past and catching up on the years that we have not had the chance to meet. Glad that after so many years, we remain in contact with each other.


September was mainly full of birthday celebrations, other than having the promos, which I did really badly in. The super epic outing on Taylin's birthday to Chinese Garden, Wenyi's simple but enjoyable birthday, Chiouyih's birthday that we had a surprise and stayed out until really late but it was worth getting scolded for. And the Mid-autumn Festival outing was plain crazy!

Fun begins now because promos ended :)


October was graduation month. I remember staying up late on many nights to make the cards for my friends, and my turbulent emotions on the day of graduation itself. My emotions remained raw for the few days that followed, somehow finally accepting that we are moving on.

There was 5R's outing to Marina Barrage which was really fun. School trip to OCS where I learnt to fire a...whatever it is haha. And Sharman's ultimate birthday surprise that was successfully executed. Felt so happy that night that everything went so well!


November is damn eventful as can be seen from the compilation ah! Cycling at ECP then Sakae buffet, what a day! First (terrible) working experience as a banquet waitress at Shangri-La. Ilights festival with the girls and taking funny pictures. Outing with various groups of people and my first clubbing experience. And going to Genting!

Anyway, I have posted about all of them before, so will not say too much.


December! Prom was awesome and so was 4H chalet, after 11 months since the last. Floorball "senior farewell" was alright.. Nice food even though the whole night was spent fiddling with the fire hmm. Beach chillax session with the girls and Chirstmas Eve spent with awesome company :)

This past year had been a lot more smooth-sailing than say, 2009. But it wasn't really a good year for me. I still didn't do well in my academics despite having done it before, which was kind of disappointing for me. My grades fell steadily from term 1, until barely scraping promotion criteria in term 4 and down for retest as well. I knw that I lose motivation and get distracted easily, but many times, I chose to sit there and watch my own demise instead of doing something about it.

In this year, I really grown to be alone in doing everything that I am comfortable and myself, just being alone. At the start it was really terrible, and as days go by, I grow more and more desperate to be free and standing on my own two feet instead of being bound down by feelings and emotions that don't matter and won't change things. I am grateful that I have people there for me, no matter how many times I say the same things to them, they never forsake me. I don't feel like dying anymore. I think I am really okay now.

Well, honestly, that is all to my 2010. No significant enough events, just one heartbreak and the getting out of it. Constantly getting stuck in the same places, on the same words and in the same scenes. But I found strength from this, had help from many who care for me and now I am free. I am finally free.

I saw through many things in this year, and if one thing I have learnt, is to go easy on myself and not stubbornly hold on to the little details and events that will only serve to hold me back. Things that have passed, let it remain in the past, and let bygones be bygones because recalling it and being sour about it will only make me feel worse. The only time when I free myself is when I cease to care about all that bothers me from the past. Put it down, walk on.

In 2011, all I really would like to be, is disciplined and focused on my target: The 'A's. Straight As might be pushing it, but I can dream right? As of now, I have yet to make great progress in my holiday assignments, but yes I am moving. The school year had been moderate for me, and occasionally getting tough but I knw that next year it is going to be different. Next year, is going to determine my future, and I will make it count.

Ah, now I feel the familiar resolve creeping back in.

I've recently returned to floorball, and I relieved the exhilaration of struggling to breathe, working together as a team, my teammates who came back to watch and my juniors who are a part of me now. I want to make my final season a good one. It's been 2 years since I joined and I will end it on a good note. I hope my motivation to turn up for trainings will not die when school starts again (as it does every so often-ly).

Whatever happened in 2010, stays in 2010.

In 2011, more strength, drive and focus for me please.
Happy 2011 my friends, may it be a good year for all :)