Lousy Day One. Posted at 11:14 PM 0 comments (+) Day One of 2011. Really not such a good day.

For a start, both my parents have been pushing me off the edge since last night. My last few supposedly peaceful hours of 2010 was completely ruined by the two of them. My father can't stop throwing his temper at me, and doing childish things like slamming things around the moment he reached home while my mother can't stop ordering me around to do things. I can't be left alone for even a moment.

Then, I woke up incredibly late this afternoon, something like near 1pm, foiling all plans to go to Vivo to do some studying and meeting Wenyi for lunch. It rained and rained all day, keeping me at home much longer than I wanted to, and my mother continued asking me to do this and that and generally, just pissing me off.

I finally escaped the house at around 7pm. Went to JP's Starbucks to finish up my tuition work. Done with P&C, thanks to help from various people the last few days, but got stuck on Differential Equations. Didn't knw what to do, felt cold and alone, and everyone around me at Starbucks was somehow in a really jolly mood. Makes me feel super miserable sitting there, doing homework on New Year's day.. Still, I suppose I ought to get used to this shit soon.

Anyway, I spent the last day of my 2010 cleaning out my room. Since the new wardrobe was due for delivery yesterday, I had to clear out the old one and the stuff on top/around it. And I found...


This is my childhood treasure, and I must have left it untouched for about a decade or so. The one on the left is a Jenny doll, and the other one is a Barbie. I was stuck for really long trying to comb out Jenny's hair nicely from the super-high ponytail I tied for her all those years back, and now the hair just won't stay down (as a very small side note, it was kind of sticky too, yuck). All the accessories on the right side of the box are for the dollhouse I used to have, but I don't knw where it's gone to now..

Honestly I have no desire to play with them anymore but still can't quite bear to give/throw them away. Still, I guess there's no point in me keeping them to gather dust and take up space.. I remember the Jenny doll was really expensive back then though, and I used to want to get hangers for all the clothes, but I never got around to it...

Alright, enough of my random musings.

So anyway, tuition begins again tmr. I can't believe I am already stressing out about the A's since the last week of 2010. My friends are already telling me all the things that I was just telling them mere months ago about the A's. I am not quite academically prepared to charge back into school though, but what's going to come, will come (in 2 days). If my ability to complete school/tuition work is any indication, I got to do so much more revision in the coming weeks and months in order to catch up.

Please, let tmr be a better day.
Please let me have enough strength.

[edit] I am actually feeling really ashamed that I have not done much about revision and my holiday assignments and when I eventually do something, I keep getting stuck on the math and having to ask people for help.. I am hoping it is not too late to start being serious tmr. Can't believe 2.5 months of holidays just flashed past like that.

Hell, it's only the first day of 2011.[/edit]