Posted at 2:15 AM 0 comments (+) Hi there, yes I knw, it's been awhile.

I'm feeling really sleepy now, and I've got to get up in a few hours' time again for tuition so really, I don't knw why I'm still not asleep. Just felt like writing something perhaps, after so long.

School's been a real struggle. I haven't been doing very much to pull myself out from the deep hole that I dug, just slowly inching above. I reckon I'll be down for counselling sessions soon if the subject teachers continue to pick on me like they do now. Some days I feel so tired I just want to let myself go. I wish I had enough strength to keep myself disciplined.

I knw I got to snap myself out of this crap real soon, March is coming right around. I feel this strange little nagging feeling of sadness within me which I can't explain nor find a reason for. I hope that my various little motivations will be able to keep me going, whatever it takes, if I have to do it, I will do it.

I will find my way.