Closure Posted at 12:22 AM 0 comments (+) Life has been about the balancing act between focusing in every lesson, giving my all in every training, and sleeping enough every night. I have to admit I ain't very good at balancing at all.

The floorball girls team played our season's opening match yesterday, against NJC. We lost, 1-2. Enough has been said about it since the final whistle of the game yesterday, and I am still slightly regretful of what could have been..

This is my third, and final season. Possibly, the end of my floorball career. This is the whole reason why I held on for so long, what I'd been waiting for since last season. A final closure. I want to make it good, make it count. I am pouring every ounce of my mental and physical strength into every training, every moment when I am on court. So much so that yes, I am giving up focusing in class and sleeping enough every night altogether.

There is really nothing much I can do about it right now. Today, Stella talked to the team about our mentality on court. Most of us are filled with fear, a feeling that we are not good enough. Hopefully after today, I will see a much stronger team in terms of mental strength.

I am going to enjoy every moment that I am given to be on court, to fulfill my duty to guard my goal, and give all that I have to my final season.

We need to be so much better than this.
I will never fall.