So I'm already gone. Posted at 12:21 AM 0 comments (+) Once again, it's been awhile.

Every day still involves me trying to get better. Still struggling, still giving and taking, sometimes failing but sometimes things go according to plan.

Sometimes, things really get too hard for me to handle all by myself, but I knw that I got to learn how to deal with it. There's no other way out except for me to face the truth myself. The truth is going to hurt, learning the truth always hurts. Nothing I can do but deal with it.

Sometimes I feel like I am fighting a lone battle. Like I am trapped in a tiny prison cell trying to break my way out. I throw myself at the walls again and again, hoping that one of the impacts will cause the wall to crack and crumble and finally set me free. But after so long, I am still right where I started out to be. On a good day, the sun shines through the slits, perhaps called a window, and I feel like it isn't that bad to stay here after all. But mostly? It's complete darkness.

So helpless, so alone.