So later, a new week at work, which makes me question myself why it's 1.50 in the morning and I am still not in bed. And at the end of the week, A level results are coming back. I'm not sure how well I'll take it though...

I am honestly so disgusted at the pure laziness that I am displaying recently. I'm not doing anything that I said I'll do, even something as small as chores. I should be more conscientious and proactive in everything but there is almost nothing I have to be doing, seriously. I feel so trapped and redundant.

When can I break out of this and be sensible enough, to think and act like a 20 year-old young adult?

Ah A level results.

What the hell do I do now...?

Sigh. Too much failures.

To be perfectly honest, I am kinda scared.

And I don't know who to admit this to.