I haven't been feeling so good this weekend, and today too because of the war at home between my parents that really sets me in a horrible mood. Apparently my dad was in a bad mood in the morning, and he all but whacked/slammed/whatevered my bed frame to wake me up, and that gave me a rude awakening, literally. So I started my day on the wrong note as well.

I don't even care/mind so much if it's just a cold war and they keep it between themselves, but I really hate it that my father just slams everything that is in the way and it makes me feel all annoyed. I mean, it isn't so necessary, is it?

Urgh.

I know it doesn't seem like much. This book is one that I've wanted for a really long time, but due to several reasons, I still have not gotten them (it's a trilogy). But it's not even really that she bought it for me that made me feel so ASDFHJGFLKDGV but like. I don't even know. She wrapped it up all nicely and stuff because she knows I am so OCD about my books and that I want it so much but I keep putting off buying it and I treasure my books a lot and everything etc etc. In what way am I deserving of a best friend like her D:

She wrote me a note that was kept in between the pages of the book.

When I read it I just felt so bad.

The way I also felt bad to Wenyi, Yanyi and Sylvia because they made the effort to give me something during Valentine's to show that I am important to them. All their words mean so much to me and it makes me feel so ashamed because I didn't deliberate over the occasion at all this year and so have prepared nothing for them.

Just. Sigh.

I don't know.

I think I need to check my messed up head out a bit.

*To be honest, when I heard you say that I was kind of shocked. But happy, nevertheless, though I wouldn't really show it. I hope you know that I'm just naturally bad at things like that but it's not that I don't care.

I do. A lot.

Anyway, please don't be silly. Nobody can replace you.