I came across this simple sentence on my Tumblr 2 weeks ago (Yes Wenyi, I know I haven't updated for a long time), and I immediately felt shamefaced.. I think we all knw why.

In the space that I haven't been updating, nothing much eventful happened, maybe other than CNY. The eve of CNY was, as it always is, better than the day of CNY itself. The reunion dinner this time was slightly nicer (to me) because my favourite cousins were present for the first time.

I've been talking on the topic of university admissions with different people recently. Honestly, there's no conclusion. Everybody just keeps telling me that it won't be as bad as I've anticipated, but of course, I don't deserve to get my hopes up, so I won't. Some people have been saying that the results will be released on 2nd March, so for now while I will for the days to go faster, I also dread the arrival of that day...

Meanwhile I've just been working my days away, occasionally meeting up with the people who are important on the weekends, or just wasting my days away not doing anything. I almost wished I had more productive things to be attending to. For the first week of work, I would leave the office building every day with light steps and a smile on my face as I jammed to my iPod songs while walking to the bus stop, but lately I don't know why I just can't muster too much energy to do anything happily.

I don't like it when I'm like this, I feel like I'm not living.

Work does give me a sense of satisfaction when I get everything right, but it gets stressful from time to time because everything just comes rushing at me all at once. But I'll manage... I've been learning things and revising it over and over (most of the time during office hours, I am really free...) so I am already familiar with what I should knw. As for the rest, I hope I will pick up over time. Got to hold out till June somehow!

Oh, but I've been writing more lately. I guess it's safe to assume that it means entirely different things for me than to most people who are doing the same thing. It speaks of things I have always yearned for, unconditional love, noble love, dramatic but honest and complete love. Things like that. Yet, the more I write, the more I am saddened that such things just don't happen in real life.

I didn't tell you, but it's because I think you won't understand it. This is the one thing in this life that I dare to call my passion. So I'll keep being crazy in your eyes, if you ever know.

That talk at Shixian's place on Sunday kind of made me feel like I'm being a sucky friend. I find that I'm bothering less about people in general, I almost feel like I don't have additional energy to care so much.

Sigh. What the hell do I do.

Lots of other nitty-gritty details about my otherwise mundane life, but as usual I am too lazy to write too much. Well, some pictures.

Of the many things that have changed in life, I'm grateful that they are not one of them. 2007 till now and more to go, hopefully :)

Virgin experience @ USS with these lovelies, people who've stuck with me in the last 2 years. Sikai we miss you!

What I look forward to? Weekends, because I always get to see the people I adore.

Fortnightly dinner and McCafe at PM mac till late with my best friends are of course enjoyable and stress-relieving, I kinda wished we could meet every Friday though ): Though it's kind of like why I'm even sick now, haha.

But for now, sleep. Work tmr.

Let this fever, flu and sore throat be gone by the time I wake up please.

Ah gogogo~