I am so tired. I can't keep this up much longer.

Very, very, very, weak.

I don't call for help anymore.

My heart struggles on its own. It hurts without reason. Once in awhile on a night like tonight, the pain gets so overwhelming and I don't know where else it is appropriate for me to say that I am really... I don't even know. Really broken.

Why do I keep getting the feeling that I am missing out on this life? Places I want to go, things I want to learn, people I want to see.

I can't say. I really have no words for all these feelings. And even if I had words for them, they just won't get it.

I am so tired.

I regret. I really regret.

Maybe if I could, I wouldn't choose it again. Opening up a whole new world to me, but I am all alone. I don't want to have anything to do with this anymore. But I can't leave.