Posted at 7:41 PM 0 comments (+)

Oh god, this shit that Blogger and Google is coming up with is really giving me a hard time. I'm not going to bother with it anymore == If by any chance my entire account disappears after 30th of May... Then so be it.

So, tmr is gna be my last day at work! Finally, after about 4 months of constant torture. After this particularly trying experience, I suppose an office job is just not for me.

I think I need to get my life in order. May is coming right up, I had no idea 4 months had zoomed past just like this. I haven't even really done anything that I want to but just wasting my life feeling like shit every day over work. Well, this is not how I want to live. I've been messing with my body too much by not sleeping enough, skipping meals almost every day, subjecting myself to stress and not working out at all. I've been waking up several times in the middle of the night for no apparent reason, which never used to happen. My appetite had shrunk so much that I can eat only a single meal a day, or half a stick of Twiggies and call it lunch. My skin's condition had reached an all-time low... In short, I've screwed myself over from head to toe, from inside to out.

I'm hoping that after I end work I'll be able to get up and go running on some mornings. Recently I've felt so tired on Friday nights that I have to go to bed at 11-ish, which is unusual even for a night when I have work the next day. But because I go to bed so early, I also wake up relatively early (for my standards), and it feels good. I should keep that up.

I'm also trying to go on the Atkins diet. It's going to be so difficult because I don't think as Asians, it's easy to veer away from carbohydrates when our staple is one itself. But it's just for me to try out, for fun. I doubt I'll be able to last long though.

20 is too young to look this cui and feel this tired everyday. Shall put my life back in order.

I will write more next time when my thoughts are more organised ^^