Posted at 3:15 AM 0 comments (+) I... There are days when I become overwhelmed by sadness, and the total feeling of non-existence, and I just really don't know who to go to. I mean, it's not that I have no one but I feel like it is not necessary to tell them all these things that they probably would only pretend to understand and give me false assurance.

So I don't.

This is a constant cycle of struggle I do not know how to accept, to break out of and leave behind. I am flawed and I am worthless and I'm so, so tired of not being enough for anyone or anything, not even myself. I want to be perfect in just one way but I am so imperfect in every way it hurts.

I sat there today and I felt like I wasn't even there. I might as well have not been there. Why was I even there? I shouldn't have been.

I'm practically falling asleep and I can't remember exactly what it was that struck me today but whatever.

Everything is just so sad and
I am so tired of trying to find words to describe this sadness.