I wasn't going to say this to anyone so I'll just say it here; that if I had gone ahead with my plan today would be the day that I would finally be gone. My body would be found, already long grown cold and stiff, and my family would be alerted. By this time, now, probably everybody would already know to come to my wake to see me for the last time.

I was this close. 

I kinda regret not doing it after all. 

Well.